My Wolf 177
**Josie’s POV ** +25 BONUS I wake up alone, which is odd and not something that happens often. My stomach rumbles with hunger and my bladder screams for release. I get up with a groan, I wouldn’t have minded a few extra hours of sleep. My legs are still a little unsteady after last night’s antics with Deacon. He’d really gone to town to make sure I was fully satisfied. I had lost count of how many orgasms he’d given me and how many different positions he’d had me in. It had been a perfect night with him and had ended with him telling me he loved me. I smile at the memory as I head to the bathroom. I’m in desperate need of a shower so I spend a good 30 minutes washing after using the facilities and cleaning my teeth. By the time I’m done, I feel much better, my body no longer aches and I feel clean once again. I go in search of my bonds with a smile on my face, I feel lighter today, like today is going to be a good day and we finally get some good news. That is until I walk into the kitchen and see the worried faces of Axel and Luke. How had they hidden their emotions from me? I check my connection to all my bonds and find each one of them feel dulled. I can still sense them all but not their emotions. Either something is wrong with our bond or they have all learnt how to shield themselves, and are all blocking me, which would be highly suspicious. “What’s going on?” I demand, eyeing them both suspiciously. “You should eat first,” Luke smiles but I can see how forced the smile is. “I don’t want to eat until you tell me what is happening. Where is Deacon?” “Josic, sit down,” Axel says softly, moving towards me with a hand outstretched. I shake my head and step back, out of his reach. “Deacon has gone home,” Luke sighs. “Excuse me?” I ask because surely I heard him wrong and he didn’t just say Deacon has gone home. “He is in the void, trying to get back to our home realm,” Axel says softly. My heart feels as though it jumps into my throat, restricting my airway. Deacon left me! He said he wouldn’t leave me, even if it meant he had to stay here with me forever, and he’s just fucking left me! I’m angry, hurt, scared and heartbroken. Why would he do this? “Why?” is all I manage to choke out. “Because he’s going to get the portals open so we can all go home,” Luke offers. “What happened to it being too dangerous?” I demand. “It’s not exactly safe here anymore, Josie. Do you really want to bring a child into this world right now when he might be targeted just because of what he is? Do you want us all to have to stay hidden in this cottage forever? What kind of life can we give him here?” he reasons. His emotions slip through his shield and I feel his fear. He’s genuinely scared for our future and I can’t blame him. Each day that passes seems to get worse and our future becomes more bleak. “I’m not saying we didn’t need to do something, I know how dire the situation is, but why the secrecy? Why didn’t we all sit down and talk about this like the team we are supposed to be?” “We didn’t want to worry you. The stress is not good for you or Little Bean,” Axel tries….